Our deepest calling is to grow into our own authentic selfhood, whether or not it conforms to some image of who we ought to be.  
Parker Palmer, Let Your Life Speak

Friday, May 15, 2009

Photo on a Friday, but not "Photo Friday"

I took this photo while in Wales last weekend (with a little photo shop magic).  Something about the dove felt so evocative to the peace I felt that day.  I waited for several minutes to capture the bird in flight, but wasn't able to get the image I was looking for.  Still I think this one is pretty great.  


Just, Margaret

3rd Anniversary

Some of you know what tomorrow is because you share this anniversary with me, others are celebrating the event for the first time, and still others are celebrating with many more years attached.  Tomorrow is LaGrange College graduation day.  I remember that day really well... lots of excitement, lots of tears, lots of hugs, lots of goodbyes, then lots of packing, and more tears driving away.  It was a good day.  You know, though I think I almost enjoyed the day before better, well, specifically the night before, the last night in my college dorm with my best friends.  Amidst all the boxes we all felt so excited.  It was electric.  The idea that our lives would change completely the next day I guess was in the back of our minds, but I just remember the feeling of enjoying to the fullest that last night of college.  It was a special time.  Congratulations on those of you joining the ranks of LC alumni tomorrow!  Enjoy your last night to the fullest.  


Just, Margaret

P.S. Maybe you've already read this, maybe not, but a recent post by a best friend reminded me this day needed to be celebrated.  That second picture is of that special last night.  

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Happy Birthday, Mama!!


Not sure what to write today, not because I don't have a lot to say, more like I have so much I could say.  My mother is an amazing woman with a caring spirit.  She lives fully into her roles of wife and mother.  She is also a nurse.  She's been a RN forever (at least forever in my world). She's worked in hospitals, nursing homes, teaching other nurses, an OB-GYN, and now she's working for our local hospice.  And I have to say her commitment to care for others is one of the things I most admire about her.  Its an outward manifestation of her beautiful spirit and faith and needless to say an inspiration for myself and my sisters.  Anyway... I could go on listing more things I admire about her or reflecting upon our friendship and how blessed I feel to have a mother who chooses to be so much a part of my life... listening, talking, laughing.  I think I'll stop here though, except to say:  I love you, Mama, and it is a blessing to celebrate your life with you today.  

Just, Margaret

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Odd dream/nightmare

Last night I dreamed I had to eat two McDonald's hamburgers.  The weird part is that it felt more like a nightmare and when I'm thinking about it now the thought of eating the burgers makes me feel kinda sick.  So I was wondering if its an indication that being a pescatarian is becoming more ingrained in my psyche.  They say when you begin to dream in a foreign language it means you're really beginning to conquer the language.  Then again McDonald's hamburgers might be frightening even if you are eating meat.  


Just, Margaret

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Its good to be exhausted.

MIH Group Photo

Saturday I joined most of the other student residents of my house for the annual "Day Out."  Loaded in a big coach with picnic supplies, we headed to Wales borderlands (Tintern Abbey and the Osc Valley to be exact).  What a fun day we had despite the chilly wind and occasional spot of rain.  We did see a bit of sun and my cheeks are rosy and have that warm summery feeling I've missed so far this spring.  What follows are a few photos and a peek into my thoughts for the day... which includes some brief journaling I did while on site hence the stream of consciousness form.  Something about just having a day to relax opened up my soul.  The landscape, though beautiful in its uniqueness, was also reminiscent of the North
 Georgia mountains.  So the day was a strange combination of remembering and creating new memories. A significant day for me in ways I don't feel completely able to express yet.  
  
It is nice to be reminded why you love something/one.  Wandering around Tintern Abbey, I suddenly have this feeling of peace that I am doing what I love, that ruins still entrance me with their memory.  "A lonely ruin what does it tell us about humanity." The poetry of space... It is so lovely to just wander and make up my own story.  Very different feeling to my field trips with my course.  Laughter with questions. 

A word for the sound of water.  Someone asked me if the English language had a word for the sound of the water flowing, falling.  Suddenly English seems so inadequate.   

When was the last time I lay down in a grassy field like this... years ago I think. [smile]

Hope you enjoyed the brief tour of my Saturday.    
Just, Margaret

Monday, May 11, 2009

A painted night sky

Its five to nine here in Bristol and the traces of our beautiful sunny Spring day are still visible in the sky.  Its getting darker, but I can still clearly see people walking on the side walk and houses across the street.  I love that we're having so much sun, but without the oppressive heat of a Georgia summer.  This is exactly what I would call perfect "porch weather".  It does wonders for my soul this sun.  One problem:  it makes it hard to think about going to sleep.  And I'm so a full 8 hours girl.  [smile]  Anyway the whole scenario reminded me of this children's book my parents used to read to me.  It was all about a young child who couldn't fall asleep in summer at her appropriate bedtime because the sun was still "awake".  As a solution her parents painted a shade for her window of the night sky, with a star, sliver of a moon, and an owl (or at least that's how I remember it).  I always thought it was so magical that she could just pull down the shade and it would be nighttime.  


I'm so thankful for my childhood.  I always felt so safe and loved.  So many memories I could share... sack swings, a tree house, our little plastic kitchen, Skippy the duck, and Pumpkin the guinea pig.  I should probably write these things down. I'm always telling others, namely my grandparents and other older adults I run into, that they need to preserve their memories for later generations.  Guess I should follow my own advice.  My life as a 25 year old is so future focused, but that I shouldn't take time to reflect about my journey so far.  
I'm still sitting at my desk looking out my window and the sky is considerably darker.  I think its safe to say that night has fallen on Bristol.  The first stars would be visible if I didn't live in the city.  Guess I'll start evening rituals, perhaps read a little, and seek rest and renewal.  Sweet dreams. 

Just, Margaret

All together now, we are the boys!

I decided to listen to some more of the cds I hadn't considered in a while. Now I'm rediscovering Big River.  There is this song at the beginning of the musical about Huck Finn and all his friends making plans for their gang.  When it started to play I had this picture of my sisters and I dancing around to this song when we were little.  Mostly we were content in our imagineering to remain girls, but whenever we listened to "We are the boys" I'm sure we all fought over who was going to  play Huck.  


Just, Margaret